I actually, if you want to know, do not blame somebody not liking me on them. I blame them for first pretending and then stopping to do that, when I’m on a track painful to leave. Or maybe for not making sufficiently clear what is good and bad in their opinion, so that I would know not to approach.

I would even be fine with the whole world hating me or not caring, bring them on. But when somebody seems to be of your tribe, but really turns out not to be that further down the road, that’s bad.

And since I’m making lots of effort to make my own specifics seen, so that wrong people wouldn’t like me, it’s even more depressing when they still make that mistake and waste my time and emotion on it.